Am I just too drunk to get it??

Well this week has been soooo bad at work that I decided that I needed to get drunk and see Bryan Windsor play. Needless to say I only accomplished one of those things...It is common knowledge that I'm a very lite weight drunk. I had 3 beers between 11:30 and 12am and I'm still buzzing some. I wanted to watch Bryan play...that's how I blow off steam these days. Through someone else's music! Well I got all 3 beers in me and was enjoying the show when I spot Wes. Wes is an old friend (1st boyfriend) that has more problems then I would even know how to handle if it were all happening to me. He supposedly just got out of rehab...I found him in a bar! He was drunk off his butt! I don't think the rehab think went well even though he said that "he passed"....HA! What kills me are what type of people is he hanging around w/ that would take a drunk to a bar! Anyway from what I could tell from the drunk mumbling...He has to go to jail for 30 days for 1 of his DUI's. I'm not saying that he doesn't deserve what he has done to himself but he is all alone except the people around him that want to use him. As stupid as he acted (which most people do when they are drunk) I got a good jift of what is going on. Bussed or not my heart went out to him. There is nothing that I can really do to help. Nothing that I can say. He was just a drunk weepy mess and so was I.

My question is....is he too far to save, should I even put for the effort to be a friend. I just don't know. It's too late at night and I'm too drunk to think about it right now. I will keep him in my thoughts and hop that something good will come his way and he won't be too drunk to not see it.

I love you Wes....Please take care!

I wish it was that easy...

I feel as though I've been going through alot lately. My girls had to go to their dad's for a week...that is the 1st time that he has every taken both of them for that long. It has been very difficult for me emotionally but I've tried to keep myself busy so it's not so bad. Then I figured out today that after completing two full semesters and one summer session that I will only have 2 years to go to get my 2 year degree. :-( Ever feel like you are spinning your wheels. Last but not least...I've been missing my father and with father's day coming up, it doesn't make it any easier. You would think that after almost 14 years I would be ok. Someone that I'm close to just got in touch w/ his real father. Just picked up the phone and called. I really wish that I could do that. "Hi Dad...I've gone back to college. I'm actually getting really good grades. Lena and Cora are getting big...you should see them...I wish you could see them. They love working out in the country as much as I do. They ask about you often. I'm going to get married to a really great guy...He looks after the girls and I, makes sure that we are ok. Well, I'm glad that you are ok...tell so and so I said hi. Have a happy Father's Day!"
I just wish it was that easy.....

So I'm a sucker for drama....

Ok...it's not really drama because no one else reads my blog. I just wanted the world (haha) to know how I feel.

About 8 years ago I met a man that completely swept me off my feet and he didn't know it till some time later. He has always been there for me when things got rough...even when he shouldn't have. Our relationship has seen it better days and at one point I thought all was lost...but I am as much if not more in love than the 1st day that I met him. My original thought was right..."He has his head securely on his shoulders and emotional strength that I have never seen. He will make someone a fine husband one day." Ya know....I think that he will.

Happy Birthday, Michael!
I hope that you enjoy your special day!
I love you with all of my heart!

Hi!! I'm a big geek!!

I guess I don't "surf" the web as much as most....but I do have certain things that I like to see and look up. I have become a huge Harry Potter fan. I orignally bought the books to get my oldest child more interested in reading but all that happened is that I'm now hooked! I've enjoyed watching little Harry grow up with all his friends. Anyway...I'm now waiting on the last book and the 5th movie. From what I understand the book should be "done" by christmas of this year...the 5th movie will be out in the summer of 2007. I'm very excited but at the same time I think that they need to get crackin' on the 2 movies left before their actors get too grown up! Alright....I realize that there is a slim to none chance that they make all the movies but one can still have their dreams! So for all you Harry Potter fans out there.....

Still here...

Well I haven't completely lost it yet....LOL School is going well I think. I would like my grades slightly higher but I'm dealing w/ it for right now. I'm still a solid "B" student. I would just like it if it were higher. I'm faced w/ having to take out a loan to continue school...my credit card just can't take anymore!

I finally got my land appraised. I think that it's good that it's not worthless, but it makes me sick to think that I need to give Curt almost $30,000. OUCH! If and when I will be able to take out a loan and give him that amount....I'm done! I don't want anything else do to w/ him.

As far as Greg goes....I guess that we are going to court. I didn't want to do that but he won't agree w/ me having sole custody even though that is the way it has always been. (just not on paper)

I wish that I had some good news but I don't really. I just feel chewed up and spit out at the moment. Things will get better right?