Just plain sad....

I figured that I would write this here because...let's face it....no one reads this!

Well..probably about a month ago I meet a friend of a girl that I work with. She seemed as if she was a really good friend to the girl....they were bestfriends and planning to get an apartment together. She gave me her # and offered to do my youngest child's hair. I was so happy to find someone close by that knew what my child was going through hair wise and could help.

Well yesterday I decided to get something to eat at work after I was done working.I had a really bad day and I wanted to chill out a little b4 I went home. The girl from work stopped by but didn't really stay in the store that long. She didn't look her normal self so I asked the Manager, who had just spoke w/ her, if she was ok. Come to find out that the friend of her's that I had met had killed herself over the weekend. I really haven't been close to that type of situation b4. I have had death it self all around me...not that I'm getting used to it or anything but there is almost a comforting feeling to know that someone live out their life. Not saying that it's easy when someone dies of old age or something...but its easier to cope I think.

I can't seem to get my head around her killing herself...to me there was no indication or anything! She had such a spirit...and seemed to be a good friend. What was so bad that she couldn't talk to her friend? What was so bad...she was only 19? I wish that I had called her...maybe if I had given her something else to concentrate on she would still be here. I don't understand why it's upsetting me so bad and I hardly knew her. Maybe it's the thought of a life cut way too short. Maybe I look at my girls and hope that it never gets that far.

Maybe it's just plain sad.....