Nothing good

I haven't posted in a while because there isn't anything good to report. I'm having to go through a legal battle w/ my half brother. I thought that I could do this without a lawyer of my own but I'm learning that I just don't have the mean streak that I need to defend myself. I get very emotional when it comes to that land and I can't be strong enough.

I thought about all this the other day and wondered if everyone elses family is like this? I really feel like an only child although I have step and half siblings...but I'm not close to any of them....not the way that I think brothers and sisters should be. The ones that I have only take advantage of you when they can. I feel as though no one is looking out for me but it's just in my nature to look out for them. I even got told at work that I need to start making sure that I'm ok and not trying to make everyone else ok.

I don't know if it's just my age....maybe what I'm going through....but the more that happens...the more bitter I become. I think that most people are just here to take advantage of anything that I might have.